First, I would like to apologize for my lack of a daily post, but I could no longer afford my internet. My only source of income is Social Security Disability and it just got cut to $590 a month. Things are going to be kinda tight until I can find out why my SSD has been cut. I tried calling social security and they were not able to give me any answers. At this rate I have to choose between paying rent and eating. It pains me to ask this but if any of you could make a donation via the Paypal link (you do not need Paypal to make a donation) it would be a big help!
As I have stated before in my blog, I deal with things by fantasizing situations going the way i wish they would go. A good example of this is would be recently fantasizing about robbing a bank. I started doing this at a young age, come to think of it I have been doing this as far back as I can remember.
One of my favorite escapes as a child was that I was accidentally switched at birth. I would not pretend my parents real parents were rich, or famous, but just that they cared! I know that sounds pathetic right! In school I would imagine that i had stood up to the bullies, or beat the crap out of them, or lastly that i was them.
When things got really bad I would imagine that I was about to die, and various was of doing so. I know that this was extremely unhealthy but I can not help but to think that this may have kept me from acting on my feelings.
Sorry this is so short but I am having trouble focusing as I am at a coffee shop right now. Until I can afford the $200 to get my internet back on I might only be able to post like once a week.